Yep. I thought I would never be able to do it you know.
I’ve started this shit 8 years ago. At the beginning, it was just fun, like everyone and I liked the smell of cigarettes. Then I got used to smoke and the 3 cigarettes a month became 1 and half pack a day! It didn’t break my heart to thing I use to smoke for 2-3 years. But now, it’s been 8 years, f***, that’s too long!
I am just fed up about spending money for that shit. Moreover each time I see the ads and what is written on packs, I just wish to struggle the person who had the idea to write it. Because even if smoking kills and so on, we’re free. If I wanted to jump from a bridge and finish on a car in the middle of the highway, actually I’d be free to do it! That’s democracy, haha!
Ok, back to that crappy cigarette. After 8 years, my feelings have changed:
- I love to smoke
- I feel a kind of pain on my lungs, which means they might be… I even don’t want to think about it!
- I feel like stopping to smoke would take a part of me, of my personality away
- I’m thinking to have a child someday, and in good health
- These last months, I’ve started to have a taste of chemicals in my mouth when I took a cigarette… weird!
- I want to travel more than I do, and the 1500€ I was used to spend for the crappy thing might help now.
- I don’t have pleasure like before while smoking. Plenty of bad thoughts come in my mind like, my lungs might be black….
So I tried everything. A year ago, I’ve used patches and got ill with them. Then I stopped smoking during 4 weeks and I got a cold, everything smelt like sh** and tasted the same way… so I started to smoke again.
Two years ago, I read the book of Allen Carr, but it didn’t help.
Yesterday, I woke up and decided to put my first cigarette away and leave it for later. I know the first is the worst; after that one, you can’t stop the whole day. The first cigarette is still there, I don’t even remember where, and I don’t care.
I eat 3 times more. I feel like something is missing. I feel more lucid. No more bad taste in my mouth. My heart seems to beat normally again. Now I’m gone to far, I can’t give up giving up smoking 
My advise: don’t start with that shit. And if it is already done; if you wish to stop, stop, if not, smoke with pleasure at least.
November 11th, 2008 at 10:40 pm
Well,
I am proud of you. I see you every day every hour and you never smoked after that day.
Just look at the date and time of this post. and see my replay date. it is a year past that you don’t smoke.
Respects to you.